Its not about the wanting

I’ve been observing a conversation between parents online about how to cope with adult sufferers of eating disorders and various co-morbid conditions – about how to keep pushing for recovery when you are the only one fighting and about when to lovingly detach for your own survival. Let me perfectly clear: I am not judging […]

Learning to fly

When I was in treatment we did a lot of motivation building exercises. We talked about why we wanted to recover. We made a lot of lists – lists of all the good things about recovery and all the bad things about being sick, all the things we would be able to do when we […]

Point of no return

There’s something I want you to know: It is not too late. You are not too broken. There is no point of no return. I did some pretty “bad” things when I was sick. Gross things. Embarrassing things. Dangerous things. Things that hurt other people. Things that went against my values. Things that I had […]

2013 Year in Review and 2014 Goals

2013 was a hard year guys. It had some great moments and some pretty shitty ones and all in all I’m not sad to see it go. My dog had cancer (super shitty although he is ok now), we got married (awesome but super stressful), I struggled through three more quarters of school (really rough […]

The Double-Edged Sword of Stigma-Reduction

I am taking an abnormal psychology class this quarter and its pretty terrible which makes me angry and frustrated and sad (and we haven’t even gotten to eating disorders yet!). A large portion of the curriculum seems to be dedicated to reducing stigma around mental illness. Which is great (although not really what I think […]