Trigger warning: weight and bmi numbers My slip into restricting a couple of months ago was triggered by seeing my weight for the first time in nearly a year. It was ten pounds higher than it had been the year before. And I was horrified. Mortified. Humiliated. Furious. And really really really confused. It had […]

Recovery Resolution: Body Dysmorphia

My recovery resolution for 2010 is to be more proactive about dealing with my body dysmorphia. The problem is that I really have no freaking clue how to do that. I know that for a lot of people body dysmorphia is more of a by-product of their eating disorder than a co-morbid condition and that […]

New Year’s “Resolutions”

I hesitate to call these new years resolutions because that term has become pretty synonymous with dieting/exercise/weight loss crap. New Year’s aspirations perhaps? 1. Go to bed earlier. Get more sleep at night and nap less during the day. Being a nanny means that I have to get up early and get to work early […]

Year in Review

A (slightly belated) overview of 2011: January: Joined a rec league soccer team which was a pretty big deal in several ways. I wrote in an email to a friend that I was amazed that my body was healthy enough to play a 90 minute soccer game and that my mind was healthy enough to […]